Babies are gone.

6/10/2018
6:32PM.

4, 6, 6, 9, 12.

The "babies" of my life are gone. It's so ok. It's fine. It's fine it's fine it's fine. I'm so fine. It's all good. I'm good. I'm so good.


.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Epilogue

 Dec 17, 2024 I don't really know how to start this blog again after having abandoned it for so long.  I'm just going to return to my roots, and use this for my stream of consciousness to pour out without edits.  I hadn't been tracking my period, but this is nothing new. Sometimes I track, sometimes I don't. Honestly life is just very fast and my period is here and gone so quickly I don't really pay much attention to it. I don't get headaches, or cramps, I usually have a very sympton-free period and that's that. So I dont usually track or stress much over it (I can hear my female friends gasping at this as I type it)... But in case you forgot, I've never been too into living a structured life.  Hakuna Matata.  But at some point, I felt like I must be late, it felt like I hadn't had a period in over a month, maybe well over a month...I started questioning when my last period might have been...I still have no clue. I guessed well over 28 days ago, so I...
Read more

Breastfeeding Twins -- In the Beginning

Image
The first two T o be honest, it was not as hard as I expected.  I nursed my other two until 11 months, and experience was a big factor in helping me to know that I could succeed. I was nervous while pregnant, not sure how it would work. I had 3 different twin breastfeeding pillows, not sure which would help the most. I read every blog, pamphlet, and book I got my hands on.  I thought I wouldn't get any sleep, or I'd be too busy nursing to care for my 3 and 5 year old. But once the babies came, it was really much easier than I anticipated and came very naturally to the 3 of us. W e had a great delivery, both born vaginally at 37 weeks 1 day via induction (I was BEYOND ready. I couldn't move, breathe, sit, stand, bend, hurry, sleep--you get the idea), 8 minutes apart. I had my epidural (thank you God) and didn't feel much. When baby A (Jackson) came out (6lbs 9oz), we were all pretty flustered with excitement,  but soon got focused on Baby B (Lincoln), who upon Ja...
Read more

Mold

(Originally written in 2018, finally published, in 2022.) I don’t have the words to sum up the last 9 months of my life. Actually that’s not true. I have too many words. And some of them just cannot be shared on this blog. 2018 ended with heartache, and 2019 started with heartache. And it hasn’t actually gone away. That’s the thing about real, deep heartache. Time doesn’t ever fully heal the pain, does it? It can be dulled, it can be momentarily forgotten, it can be lost amongst the more pervasive moments we must deal with day to day. But the heartache doesn’t leave completely. And I’m struggling because I know that so much healing lies on the other side of sharing these heartaches—on the other side of eyes red and raw, on the other side of sobs and gasping for breath type crying, there is opportunity for healing, for empathy, for a willing soul to share in the grief. But I’m struggling because these heartaches run too deep. They cross over into many lives. They have already ...
Read more